maybe if all the guys that i really liked during my whole life would know the kind of girl that i truly am, i'm so sure that none of the 3 would give me a chance. Now or then.
Because i show myself more simply that i am. I'm such a complicated scumbag. And i hate it, i hate it because... arj i hate it because everyone seems to be so happy and satisfied with their lifes and choices. And me?, i still question myself about so many things that i should have done, and some others that i shouldn't.
I hate it because i supposed to be happy now, i supposed to be fine.
I'm studing the career that i want, and i love it.
I got a new little brother and he's such a treasure.
I have the most amazing boyfriend that i could ever ask for.
I have the most amazing friends in the whole world.
I'm doing good in university.

Then... why am i feeling this way? like... if there's something missing in my life. I wish i could figure it out and get it to be complete and happy. But i dont know what it is. What the hell is missing in my life?.

It feels so awful.